Saturday, August 1, 2020

Carpe Diem Extra August 1st, 2020 update

Dear Haijin, visitors and travelers,

As you all know the plan was to publish every day after the corona crisis, but as you have experienced, that plan didn't work. At the moment I am very busy, not only at work, but also in private. Last Monday July 27th, I started to clean up the house of my mom. It's sad but she is becoming more confused and her dementia is starting to become worse. It's not possible anymore for her to return to her own home, so we are cleaning her house to give our youngest son the opportunity to start his own life.

It is a sad and very emotional time for me (and my family) so I cannot follow the plan I had to publish on a daily base. I hope that you all are understanding this. It is just not possible to hold on to my promise. It really makes me sad ...

fading away more and more
she ... a child again

© Chèvrefeuille, your host

Have a great weekend.


  1. Oh Kristjaan, you have already been through so much and have some way to go yet on this sad journey. We all understand and will wait patiently until you are ready to come back to Carpe Diem. Much love, Kim xx

  2. I look forward to your prompts whenever you can do them. If it's a long time in between, that is okay. My son and I have been cleaning out the mobile home that I lived in and the conditions in there got very bad because I was extremely depressed. I was able to make myself go to work but was barely functional otherwise. It has been a long and awful project, and my creativity has taken a big hit because of it.
    I sympathize with you. My father had vascular dementia and towards the end of his life was confusing things happening on TV with real life.
    I am feeling quite heartbroken today, close to suicidal. I feel that my work is worthless as am I. But I will try to believe and will keep going just in case things can improve somehow.
    I wish you all the best.

  3. Blessings and prayers for you and your family. Beautifully sad haiku.

  4. Please do not feel apologetic about being unable to post as often as planned.  You have not broken a promise; you have changed plans in light of a sad situation.

    After my late wife's dementia required moving to a nursing home, there were some sad moments when she longed to "go home" to our house and I did whatever I could to distract her.  But she did eventually adjust to living in the nursing home and to being "a child again" (as your haiku so aptly puts it).

  5. May God be near you all with His comfort and strength in this difficult time, Kristjaan.

  6. turmoil beats in the wings
    of a soft feathered bird
    aching to be free

  7. child once more
    a son understands
    roles reversed

  8. You have many important issues going on in your life. I hope things calm down soon. Everyone who posts here, and has learned
    so much from you, will certainly understand. When and if you can host this wonderful site again, I will be very happy.
    Take care of yourself and your family.

  9. I cared for my mother the last five years of her life as she battled Alzheimer's and Lewy Body dementia. You have my full support in the difficult days ahead. Peace.

  10. So sad to have an ailment of this kind.