Dear Haijin, visitors and travelers,
I feel the urge to tell you how it's going here in The Netherlands. As you all have noticed the last weeks I am not publishing on time or sometimes not at all. I love to explain why. As I told you in one of my earlier posts my mother is diagnosed with vascular dementia. The last weeks her dementia is very progressive. She looses the hold on her life and brings her own safety in danger. I am the only one left, next to my mother, of our family, so I am almost on a daily base at my mother's home.
She is really loosing the hold on our life and needs almost 24/7 care, but at the moment there is no place in the nursing homes for the elderly.
You all will understand that the care for my mother takes all my time and that makes me sad, because you all are in a way my family and I just want to give you all the attention you deserve. That's not possible at the moment. I am exhausted and running towards a nervous breakdown.
So I have decided to take some time off. Ofcourse with pain in my heart, but I cannot cope in a good way with the progressive dementia of my mother ... I hope you all will understand my decision.
I hope to be back as your host in a few weeks, because I really love CDHK and I love to do our traditional "Seven Days Before Christmas" feature ...
|it dribbles tears|
I used to meet in the mirror
is no more.
Now I see a wasted face.
It dribbles tears.
© Masaoka Shiki
This Tanka by Shiki, gives you an idea how I am feeling right now.
Chèvrefeuille, your host