Friday, December 6, 2019

Carpe Diem Extra December 6th 2019 ... CDHK on hold

Dear Haijin, visitors and travelers,

I feel the urge to tell you how it's going here in The Netherlands. As you all have noticed the last weeks I am not publishing on time or sometimes not at all. I love to explain why. As I told you in one of my earlier posts my mother is diagnosed with vascular dementia. The last weeks her dementia is very progressive. She looses the hold on her life and brings her own safety in danger. I am the only one left, next to my mother, of our family, so I am almost on a daily base at my mother's home.
She is really loosing the hold on our life and needs almost 24/7 care, but at the moment there is no place in the nursing homes for the elderly.
You all will understand that the care for my mother takes all my time and that makes me sad, because you all are in a way my family and I just want to give you all the attention you deserve. That's not possible at the moment. I am exhausted and running towards a nervous breakdown.
So I have decided to take some time off. Ofcourse with pain in my heart, but I cannot cope in a good way with the progressive dementia of my mother ... I hope you all will understand my decision.

I hope to be back as your host in a few weeks, because I really love CDHK and I love to do our traditional "Seven Days Before Christmas" feature ...

it dribbles tears

The man
I used to meet in the mirror
is no more.
Now I see a wasted face.
It dribbles tears.

© Masaoka Shiki

This Tanka by Shiki, gives you an idea how I am feeling right now.


Chèvrefeuille, your host


  1. Please take care of yourself and take as much time as you need before you return. Prayers for you and your mother. Thank you for all the work you do on this blog and all the inspiration you generate. We appreciate it.

  2. Kristjaan,

    Please take all the time you need.

    world upended
    as a mother slips away
    a son rises

  3. Of course your Family must come first. But please keep in mind that You must also take care of yourself. Remember to breathe. Everything happens for a reason. There are things beyond you control.

  4. Hi,

    I am sorry to hear about your mother. I hope the
    situation improves for the both of you.


  5. Dear Kristjaan, I'd worked out that you were caring for your mother and offer you my deepest sympathy. As you know, my late mother also had dementia and I understand how hard it is to watch it take away a loved one piece by piece. I am thinking of you.

  6. Of course I understand. I hope you are able to find a good place for your mother soon, one where she can be comfortable and you can know she is getting the best of care. My mother was the main caregiver for my father after he had a major stroke. He developed vascular dementia as well. My thoughts are with you. I will still check in for news from you. Please don't worry about the prompts at all. I appreciate them, but I also appreciate you as a person. Good wishes to you and your family.

  7. Please take care of yourself as well as your mother. I have been a dementia caregiver. It is tough.

  8. Your mother needs you and we understand that, Kristjaan. Take all the time you need (and care for yourself too)!! Love & prayers from your haiku family.

  9. Wishing the best for you and your mom Kristaan. I know this is hard.

  10. You need to take care of your mother right now...your haiku family understands. Take all the time you need, Kristjaan!

  11. I am so sorry you are going through this, and being the only responsible one puts an added burden on you. Everyone in our haiku family will understand the stress and strain. I hope the situation changes, and look forward to your challenges again.

  12. May you have the strength you need to care for your mother in this difficult situation.